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Monday, October 18, 2021

Lakshmi Panchali Part 2

 অবন্তী নগরে লক্ষ্মী হ’ল উপনীত।

Avanti Nagare Lokkhi holo Uponito

দেখিয়া শুনিয়া হ’ল বড়ই স্তম্ভিত।
Dekhiya shuniya holo boroi stambitho
নগরের লক্ষপতি ধনেশ্বর রায়।
Nagarer Lakkhapati Dhaneshwar Ray
অগাধ ঐশ্বর্য তার কুবেরের প্রায়।
Agadh aishorjo tar Kuberer praye
সােনার সংসার তার শূন্য হিংসা দ্বেষ।
Sonar songsar tar sonya hingsha dwesh
প্রজাগণে পালিত সে পুত্র নির্বিশেষে ৷
prajagane palita se putra nirbisheshe
এক অন্নে সাত পুত্র রাখি ধনেশ্বর।
ek anne saat putra rakhi dhaneshwar
যথাকালে সসম্মানে গেল লােকান্তর ||
jatha kale sasammane gelo lokantar
পিতার মৃত্যুর পর সপ্ত সহােদর।
pitar mrityur por sapta sahodar
হইল পৃথক অন্ন সপ্ত সহােদর ।
hoilo prithak anna sapta sahodar
ক্রমে ক্রমে লক্ষ্মীদেবী ছাড়িল সবারে।
krame krame lokkhi debi chharilo sabare
সােনার সংসার সব গেল ছারখারে।
sonar songshar sab gelo chharkhare
বৃদ্ধা ধনেশ্বর পত্নী না পারি তিষ্ঠিতে।
briddha dhaneshwar patni na pari tishtite
গহণ কাননে যায় জীবন ত্যজিতে।
gahan kanane jaye jeban tyajite
হেনকালে ছদ্মবেশে দেবী নারায়ণী।
henkale chhaddabeshe debi narayani
বন মাঝে উপনীত হলেন আপনি।
Bon maajhe uponito holen apani

মধুর বচনে দেবী জিজ্ঞাসে বৃদ্ধারে।
Madhur bachanedebi jiggashe briddhare
কিজন্য এসেছ তুমি গহণ কান্তারে ।
kijonne esecho tumi gahan kantare
কাঁদিতে কাদিতে বৃদ্ধা অতি দুঃখভরে।
kandite kandite briddha ati dukhbhare
তাহার ভাগ্যের কথা বলিল লক্ষ্মীরে।
tahar bhagger katha bolio lokkhire
সহিতে না পারি আর সংসার যাতনা।
sahite na pari aar sangsar jatana


ত্যজিব জীবন আমি করেছি বাসনা ।
Tajebi jibon ami korechi basana
লক্ষ্মীদেবী বলে শুন আমার বচন।
Lokkhidebi bole shono amar bachan
মহাপাপ আত্মহত্যা নরকে গমন।
Mahapap atmyahatya narake gaman
আমি বলি সাধবী তুমি কর লক্ষ্মীব্রত।
ami boli sadhabi tumi koro lokkhibroto
দুঃখ রবি অস্ত যাবে হবে পূবমত।
dukkha robi oste jabe hobe purbomoto
মনেতে লক্ষ্মীর মূর্তি করিয়া চিন্তন।
monete lokkhir murti koriya chintan
একমনে ব্রতকথা করিবে শ্রবণ ।
Ekmone bratakatha koribe shraban
ঘরে গিয়ে এয়াে লয়ে কর লক্ষ্মীব্রত।
ghore giye eyo loye koro lokkhibroto
যেই গৃহে লক্ষ্মীব্রত গুরুবারে হয়।
jei ghore lokkhibroto gurubare hoye
বাঁধা থকে লক্ষ্মী তথা জানিও নিশ্চয় ।
bandha thake lokkhi tatha janio nischoy
বলিতে বলিতে দেবী নিজ মূর্তি ধরি।
bolite bolite debi nija murti dhori
দরশন দিল তারে লক্ষ্মী কৃপা করি ।
darshan dilo tar lokkhi kripa kori
মূর্তি হেরি বৃদ্ধা তারে প্রণাম করিল।
murti heri briddha tare pranam korilo
আনন্দিত হয়ে বৃদ্ধা গৃহেতে ফিরিল ৷
anadita hoye briddha grihete phirilo
গৃহেতে ফিরিয়া বৃদ্ধা করিল বর্ণন।
grihete phiriya briddha korilo barnan
যেরূপে ঘটিল তার দেবী দরশন।
je rupe ghatilo tar debi darshan
ব্রতের বিধান সব বধূদের বলে ।
brater bidhan sab bahudure bole
শুনি বধুগণ ব্রত করে কৌতূহলে ॥
shuni bodhugan brata kore koutuhole
বধূগণ লয়ে বৃদ্ধা করে লক্ষ্মীব্রত।
bodhugan loye briddhan kore lokkhibrata
হিংসা দ্বেষ-স্বার্থ ভাব হৈল তিরােহিত।
hingsha dwesh swartho bhab hoilo tirohito

Friday, October 15, 2021

Lakshmi Panchali - Part 1

Due to the demands, posting the transliterated version .

I do not have a Panchali - so the lyrics had to be taken from 

Panchali

This is part 1 - I will cover the other parts over the next few weeks.


দোল পূর্ণিমার নিশি নির্মল আকাশ।

Dol Purnimar Nishi Nirmal Aakash|

ধীরে ধীরে বহিতেছে মলয় বাতাস ।।

Dheere Dheere bahiteche Malay Batash||
লক্ষ্মীদেবী বামে করি বসি নারায়ণ।

Lakshmidevi baame kori boshi Narayan|
করিতেছে নানা কথা সুখে আলাপন ||

Kariteche nana kotha sukhe alapan||
সেইকালে বীণা হস্তে নারদ মুনিবর।

Shei kaale beena haste narad munibar|
লক্ষ্মী নারায়ণে নমি কহিল বিস্তর।

Lokkhi Narayane nomi kohilo bistor|
ঋষি বলে মাগাে তব কেমন বিচার।

Rishi Bole Mago tobo kemon bichar|
সর্বদা চঞ্চলা হয়ে ফির দ্বারে দ্বার ৷

Sorboda chanchala hoye phiro dware dwar|
মর্ত্যবাসী সদা তাই ভুগিছে দুর্গতি।

Mritobashi sada tai bhugiche durgati|
ক্ষণেকের তরে তব নাহি কোথা স্থিতি।

Khoneker tore tobo naahi kotha stithi|
প্রতিদিন অন্নভাবে সবে দুঃখ পায়।

Pratidin annabhabe sobe dukkha paye|
প্রতি গৃহে অনশন জীর্ণ-শীর্ণকায় ॥

Prati grihe anshan jirna shirnakaye||
নারদের বাক্য শুনি লক্ষ্মী ঠাকুরাণী।।

Narader bakya shuni Lokkhi thakurani ||
সঘনে নিঃশ্বাস ত্যজি কহে মৃদুবাণী ।।

Soghone nishhash tyaji kahe Modhubani ||
বৃহস্পতিবারে মিলি যত এয়ােগণে।

Brihshpatibare mili joto treyogone|
বাড়িবে ঐশ্বৰ্য্য তাহে তােমার কৃপায়।

Baribe oishiorjo tahe tomar kripaye|
দুঃখ কষ্ট দূরে যাবে তােমার দয়ায় ॥

Dukkha Koshto Dure jabe tomar doyaye||
শ্রীহরির বাক্য শুনি আনন্দিত মনে।

Srihari r Bakka shuni anandita mone|
মর্তে চলিলেন লক্ষ্মী ব্রত প্রচারণে।

Morte cholinen Lakshmi brata pracharane|
অবন্তী নগরে লক্ষ্মী হ’ল উপনীত।

Abanti Nagare Lokkhi holo uponito|
দেখিয়া শুনিয়া হ’ল বড়ই স্তম্ভিত।

Dekhiya shuniya holo boroi stambhito|
নগরের লক্ষপতি ধনেশ্বর রায়।

Nagarer Lokkhopati Dhaneshwar Ray|
অগাধ ঐশ্বৰ্য্য তার কুবেরের প্রায়।

Ogadh Oishorjo tar Kuberer Pryae|
সােনার সংসার তার শূন্য হিংসা দ্বেষ ।

Sonar songsar tar shunya hingsha dwesh|
প্রজাগণে পালিত সে পুত্র নির্বিশেষে ॥

Prajagone Palito se putra nirbisheshe||
যথাকালে সসম্মানে গেল লােকান্তর ।।

Jathakale sasammane gelo lokantar||
কভুনা কাহার প্রতি আমি করি রােষ।

Kobhna kahar prati ami kori rosh|
পিতার মৃত্যুর পর সপ্ত সহােদর।

Pitar mritur por sapta sahadar|
হইল পৃথক অন্ন সপ্ত সহােদর ||

Hoilo prithak anna sapta sahadar||
নরনারী দুঃখ পায় নিজ কর্মদোষ ॥

Naranari dukkha paye nija karma dosh||
যাও তুমি ঋষির ত্রিলােক ভ্রমণে।

Jao tumi rishibar trilok bhramane|
ইহার বিধান আমি করিব যতনে ॥

Ihar bidhan ami koribo jotone||
অতঃপর চিন্তি লক্ষ্মী নারায়ণে কয়।।

aAth por Lokkhi Narayane Koye||
কিরূপে হরিব দুঃখ কই দয়াময় ।

Kirupre horibo dukkha koi doyamoy|
হরি কহে শুন সতী বচন আমার।

Hari kohe shono Sati bachan amar|
মর্ত্যধামে লক্ষ্মী ব্রত করহ প্রচার ।।।

Marta dhame Lokkhi broto koroho prochar|||

বৃহস্পতিবারে মিলি যত এয়ােগণে।

Brihaspatibare Mili joto treyogone|
সন্ধ্যাবেলা পূজার কথা শুনি ভক্তিমনে।

Sondhabela Pujar kotha shuni bhaktimone|
বাড়িবে ঐশ্বর্যা তাহে তােমার কৃপায়।।

Baribe oishorjo tahe tomar kripyae||
দুঃখ কষ্ট দূরে যাবে তােমার দয়ায় ||

Dukkha Koshto dure jabe tomar doyaye||
শ্রীহরির বাক্য শুনি আনন্দিত মনে।

SriHarir Bakkya shuni anandita mone|
মর্তে চলিলেন লক্ষ্মী ব্রত প্রচারণে ॥

Morte cholilen Lokkhi broto pracharane||

Monday, December 09, 2019

Reminiscences of San Francisco through Armistead Maupin and things like sexuality

I am not sure how it really started. Maybe because i was sick, at home and wanted to watch something.
While browsing Netflix i came across Tales of the city, the new series Ok, what the hell.
So i started watching on Friday hoping to finish the series by Sunday.
And by Saturday i had finished the season but also an episode of the original Tales of the city.
I am not going to review the series. But then all the time i was thinking, why the hell was i staying in Daly City and not in Russian Hill or Nob hill.

So this weekend has been thinking of what i could have done different if i was there now.
I was in Castro a few times but had no clue then what that meant. Now, maybe I could ecplore that area.

So maybe my thoughts and dreams would remain in my head, and i would go as society wants me (atleast the society i grew up in).

The series have got me seriously thinking on sexuality. On bisexuality. On ecploring so called forbidden avenues.

And now i am wondering if i was to explore a different side, how would i go.about it.

I hate sites where you hook up and break up. Feel like a white, reading the comments. People just saying Hi, Sex, When.

I want to explore and yet take it gently. Maybe being single helps.

Wednesday, October 16, 2019

Lakshmi Panchali

I was getting multiple requests for the Panchali of Lakshmi. Below is the Translation (effort made) of the same.


The Mantra with which Lakshmi is to be worshiped is

Om Trailokaya poojite devi kamle Vishnuvallabahe
Yatha tva susthira Krushne tatha bhav matisthira
Ishwari kamla Laxmischala murti Haripriya
Padmapedmalaya sampad rama Shri padamdharini
Dwadshaitani namami Laxmisampujaya ya pathet
Sthira Laxmibhravet tasya putradimi saha

The Story

A clear full moon night of Dol (Holi) 
Sweet breeze was flowing
With Lakshmi on his left, Vishnu was sitting 
And both were talking about many things.

At that moment with a veena in his hand
Narada the sage came there
Bowing to both Lakshni and Vishnu 
He addressed them.

He said - O Mother Why this injustice.
You are always moving around
You are not stationary 
And the people on earth are suffering.

People are dying for food
They are thin and sick.
Hearing this Lakshmi
Sighed and said

I am not ever angry at anyone
People are suffering because of their actions.
O sage you go on your trip around the universe
While I try to fix this.

Then worried she said to Vishnu
How will I solve this issue.
Vishnu said - Devout wife, listen to me.
Have your tale told on earth.

On a Thursday let the women
Woship you and listen to your tale with full devotion.
They will become rich
Their sorrows will be absolved.

Happy to hear the words of Vishnu
Lakshmi left for the earth to make the tale popular.
She landed in the kingdom of Avanti
And started wondering.

There was a king Dhaneshwar Rai
He was very rich with wealth like that of Kubera.
He had no malice in his heart
And ruled his subjects like his own children.

He died leaving seven sons
After his death the seven sons separated.
They set up establishments.
Prosperity left them.

Seeing this their mother tried to get things sorted
Failing which she left for the forest to end her life.
In disguise Lakshmi 
Went to the forest and approached the lady.

In a sweet voice
She asked the old lady why she was in the forest.
Crying 
The lady started telling her tale.

I am not able to bear this life
I am planning to kill myself.
Lakshmi said Listen to me
Suicide is a grave sin.

Listen to me O lady start reading the story of Lakshmi
Your grief will be gone and all will be like before.
Thinking of the image of Lakshmi
Reading the story of Lakshmi, concentrating on it.

The house in which this takes place on a Thursday
Becomes the abode of Lakshmi.
Saying this Lakshmi showed her true self to the old lady
Seeing Lakshmi, the lady fell at Her feet and then returned to her house.

She told all her daughters in law
How she saw Lakshmi
She told them the importance of the story of Lakshmi
Hearing this all started reading the story of Lakshmi, curious to see results.

With her daughters in law, they all recited the story
And all malice vanished from there.
Lakshmi came back to the household
And the house became prosperous.

One day a lady came to the house, as by providence
When the story of Lakshmi was being recited.
Hearing the story of Lakshmi she was impressed
And wanted to recite the story herself.

Her husband was sick
And they had to survive by begging.
Thinking of this the lady wished
For her husband to be cured.

She was advised to go home and recite the story of Lakshmi
She went home and with full devotion recited the story of Lakshmi
With the blessings of Lakshmi her worries vanished
Husband was cured and regained his youth.
In time, on an auspicious day
She gave birth to a son.
The son was a handsome boy.
Thus the story of Lakshmi became popular
And word spread from person to person.
News spread out in the city of Avanti.
Listen O ladies 
How the word spread.

In the city of Avanti
In a family the ladies were reciting the story of Lakshmi.
Suddenly the son of a merchant arrived there.
And came when the story was being recited.

Seeing this he wanted to know
What would be the results of this worship.
Hearing this the ladies said
We are doing it to please Lakshmi and get what we want.
Who ever does this
Will prosper.

Hearing this the merchant said
What is the use of this for me, who has all the wealth.
If there is no luck 
Then what wealth will Lakshmi give me.

This was something Lakshmi could not bear
And she left the merchant.
All the merchant's ships which had gone for trading
All sank in the waters.

All the wealth that was in the merchant's house vanished
He was reduced to nothing.
He and his family was reduced to begging
And would roam in distant places in search of food.

Realizing his mistake 
He started praying to Lakshmi.
Lakshmi was pleased
And blessed the merchant.

Coming back home
He saw all had been restored and it was all like in the olden days.

Thus the word of Lakshmi 
Spread all over.
Remember this story all
Blessings of Lakshmi will remove all obstacles.

With folded hands
Pray to Lakshmi wherever you are.

Whoever reads this story and keep the book at home
Gets the blessings of Lakshmi.
All wishes are granted.

The story of Lakshmi is beautiful
Pray and go to your houses.
This is the end of the story of Lakshmi
With joy take the name of Lakshmi and Vishnu.



Tuesday, October 08, 2019

Another Puja

It's strange. 2 years since I posted something here.
Time goes, work increases.
What happened in the last years - I m 2 years older, had a vacation in Chennai last year, had trips to Kolkata.

Today is VijayaDashami. The day Durga goes back. This year I went around and saw a few Pujas in the city.
And this year, like all years, feeling sad. Going away of Durga reminds me of my mother. Except that Durga will be back next year.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Mahalaya 2017

The coming of Durga - the start of the annual festival of celebration of the Mother Goddess.
Unfortunately that charm is gone now.

The last time I actually went around watching the decorated Idols of Durga was in 2014. Since then, the charm of Durga Puja is gone.

Instead of joy, it brings sadness. The void deepens, sad memories come in.

And this year, there is no holiday for Puja, and I did not ask for one too.

Anyway, work up early to hear Mahalaya. With no radio at home, turned to the idiot box. Watched the decked up actresses dance as Durga. Did not find it interesting.

I find it better to listen to the recording of Mahalaya on Youtube.


Tuesday, July 11, 2017

2 years

Its been over 2 years since Ma left.

In Delhi again for the annual puja.

Was going through things and found some of Ma's things that I plan to tale away with me. Hope I remember to.